Thoughts at 3 am

Is it just me? I'm fine during the day, thoughts of my age and babies don't really bother me. But, dang, if I don't wake up at about 3 am at least twice a week. It would be alright if I could just turn over and go back to sleep. But for some reason, that is when my mind decides to wander. I'm getting older. I'm not pregnant. I'm getting older. I may not have a baby. I'm getting older. My job is no longer rewarding. I'm getting older. I'm getting older. I'm getting older!! AGH!! I can lay there for an hour and just think these things over and over and over. And as I think them I am just getting older!! So I'm vowing now, no more. If I wake up, and start this vicious cycle, I'm getting up. Maybe I'll become a late night baker, or just a late night blogger. But I will no longer allow myself to lay in bed for over an hour and fret about my empty uterus.

Tomorrow I'm baking ginger cookies...